like mother like daughter?

I called up one of my mom’s friends last week.  We chatted briefly, and she ended our conversation with the exclamation “you are just like your mother!”

I have heard this a lot in my adult life, and never more often than during Mom’s illness and after her passing. But it wasn’t always so; as a chubby, shy child, people percieved (and I understood) us to be very different. So even long after I shed the baby fat and became better skilled at interacting with my peers, part of me feels like shouting “Me and Mom, ALIKE?! Haven’t you noticed that I’m shorterfatterlessattractivelessgnerousmoreselfishmoresociallyakwardmorelazy?” 

Its embarrasingly small- minded to play the comparison game with your own mother. But I did.  And I never felt I measured up. 


like mother, like daughter? Christmas 1992


These days, I’m noticing not the ways that we are different (and the ways I harshly judged myself to be inferior to her), but the ways that we are alike.  I miss her so terribly, and there is nothing that reminds me more of her than, well, me.  Small things, like the way I rest my hand on a table.  My fingers themselves. When I ran my fingers through my hair yesterday, I swear I could feel those silver curls of hers- her last real hairstyle before it fell out the final time.

Since her death, I have felt her energy for trying new things and accomplishing my dreams. And I have felt her energy to give, to be of purpose, to make a difference. Did she pass along some of her goodness and wisdom as she crossed over, or am I simply paying more attention to what was there all along?

6 thoughts on “like mother like daughter?

  1. Step On a Crack

    I can SO relate! I never felt I lived up to my mothers expectations. I know this is a little different BUT She was just so gorgeous and elegant! I never ever thought I could be like her in that way and honestly, I don’t think I can. She was some exotic creature. Me, not so much. Now that she is gone I am trying to figure out:

    how were we alike? How?

    Interesting journey to say the least…

    thank you for posting this..

    peace, Jen


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