Its a new year. 2013. In light of my recent loss I thought this holiday would be more bitter than sweet, full of remorse, grief, the sensation of happiness slipping through my fingers and sliding away.
But here’s the miracle in all of this: I felt joy. My heart was full with hope and gratitude. I’m ready for a new beginning, for what this year and beyond has tucked beneath her wings. I know that I am stronger, my relationship is stronger. I am ready to reap rewards after the long slog of 2012, to let the old fall to the floor like a chiffon dress and step into the light. And you know what? Because of my experiences over the last few years, I can find the beauty in anything. Even sadness. Even heartbreak. So no matter what is in store for me in 2013, I have the confidence that I will be okay. I can soar through any storm and come out on the other side with flapping wings shining gossamer in the sunshine.
Thanks to all the kind souls who have given me support on the written (typed?) page this year, who have reached out in a spirit of compassion and understanding. From connecting me with my mother’s high school boyfriend to discovering kindred spirits with similar life experiences scattered across the globe, I appreciate the power of this little blog to bring me joy, wisdom, and the sense of being part of a greater web of understanding. I’ve learned and am learning from all of you. Thank you for reading, for commenting, and for broadening my world. I couldn’t do this without you.
For those of you perusing blogs on your holiday from work, here are my most popular blog posts from 2012. Enjoy, and thanks to the statisticians at WordPress.
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So, Happy New Year! Stay safe, stay grateful, and (if you will) keep reading. 🙂